Poetry

Compilation 64

Sometimes a title comes first – sometimes a particular line in a poem

There are too many ideas to write down

Representations of beauty

A mixture of grace and insanity come to life

Difficult to focus on too many things at once

Feeling lost on the snowy expanse of a blank word document

Petrified of turning eleven

Despite occasional stress fractures it’s possible to heal

Lucky house guest of the Honourable Phryne Fisher

The light glowed warm from the burgundy beam-framed windows

Freshly baked croissants

I sleep better when there is a dish towel on my pillow

My imagination plays tricks on me with evils that aren’t there

A tall, black, iron gate

A monster was never the muse

I want to know you

I started with The Hobbit

I change

And it just doesn’t look right somehow

Petals float from branch to grass

Collect the fallen

I tend to follow my gut

Like a baby by the ocean

Fade from view into one deep blue

A cocktail of salty humidity clings to the furniture

The selkies wander freely here

We sat in a dive bar in Venice

We toasted with Chivas and an Irish blessing

Watch out for other spirits lifting

I want to see the ghosts

Wisps of clouds on the distant horizon

Apparition haunting the library in my head

Enjoying my escape into Miss Eyre and Mr. Rochester’s story

My mind is a curious, cluttered place

Polygamist set of champagne flutes

I began to appreciate my reality more

I wore a blue dress to the movies

Some freeze time and some impress

A fluid turned dissonant composition

How do you “not hear” music?

I have to remind myself to slow down

I gathered my debris

Memory marathon training

Poetry in the maroon composition notebook

Dragging along the stress of extra baggage

My decision to detach

I’d have gone sooner

Put the worries away for a moment to make room for clarity and creativity

Put your brave face on

Reduced stress, more clarity, and more space

I reserved my battle cry

Ease up on the clutch; you’ll feel it

Incapable of keeping plants alive

A grueling operation to amputate the legs of our couch

We collected our bags

We were usually just a stopover

Switched out our red brick wall

Our power has been out

Why fret about it now?

We sipped warm, red wine

White twinkle lights in the kitchen

An army of albatrosses in the Falkland Islands

Already standing on the summit

Many moments in empty venues

Health & Lifestyle · Mental Health · Minimalism · Poetry

Shopping My Closet

I’ve been shedding bits of myself lately-

Discarding layers

Like pilled sweaters and torn jeans in a heap on the floor,

Too careless to aim for the hamper

And call them as they are-

Pieces in need of care and mending.

Sometimes I’ll pick part of me back up and wear it again,

Beyond acceptable condition of wearability.

A muddy thought.

A wrinkled smile.

A stained mindset.

And it just doesn’t look right somehow.

And then I realize that I packed away the appropriate wearables months ago,

Vacuum sealed in a Small Space Bag 

In a plastic bin from Target.

I open the bin

And see the love, friends, hobbies, memories, and plans shriveled up like raisins packed for space rations.

I open the bag and they puff up into grapes again,

Turned with the chemical perfume of storage.

I wash my wearables

And extra spin so they look their best.

I slide into a brightly colored memory,

A cotton blend of calm and nostalgia that allows room to breathe.

I am me once again,

Happy thoughts folded in the drawers

where I can reach them,

The hamper and floor – empty,

Ready to collect me 

When I am over worn.

Mental Health · Poetry

Fortune Favors

My mind is a deconsecrated cathedral turned into hipster apartments full of whimsy, mismatched decor, and white-washed walls.

The Madonna weeps over a modern record player with the Abbey Road B-side scratching on repeat in a studio kitchen,

Majestic in her broken panes of stained glass, cemented together with black composite.

She is beautiful and her suffering-an art.

She is womanhood and childhood and loss.

Taken for granted,

Rent-stabilized cost of losing a savior

for location location location.

The stations of the cross taken down,

Their shadows left behind beneath un-frescoed white walls to make room for mass-produced art from Target.

My creativity, removed from its sepulcher during construction, is haunting the rooms, evicting the mundane tenants who are satisfied with the status quo.

The times they are a changin’,

Rearranging priorities and preferences,

The colors-more vibrant, the words-more bold.

I write on the walls with lipstick and crayon, like Harold in his purple world

With a grown-up twist.

Unformed and malleable,

Full of possibility and light,

I grow and glow.

I illuminate past the confines of the bulbs in the IKEA pendant fixtures,

A mixture of grace and insanity come to life in a way that finally pulls the room together.

Free to curate slowly with care,

My soul revived with abundant self-worth and self-love,

Absolutely enough 

and ready to take on the neighborhood market – Upscale and laid back with an unbeatable view of  the future.

I grip my grasp on happiness with a firm hold,

finally bold 

And recognize that “can” is a word in my vocabulary again.

Survival does not depend on compromising on dreams and

Split seams can always be mended.

Everything will extend beyond fine.

Unraveled thread, re-wound.

Possibility abounding.

I am me. I am she.

I am mine.